I love myself. I wish I could find another person like me. Someone said I'm not that special. I think I am. I think that I really am that unique. Which kinda makes me sad, because it means I'll never be able to have that much fun, and be able to laugh as much as I could if there were another me. But I guess it's cool that there's only one me, because it means that I am unique.
I was thinking today, in the woods. Why do we need to know everything? Why do we keep searching for answers? Why do we need to understand? Why is not knowing worse than knowing?
Man, my moods are intense. One minute I hate myself, the next, I love myself. But I can't help it. I'm passionate. I feel. I feel my feelings. If that makes sense.
I had adventures today, I played with my sibs, I was funny, I was random, I was spontaneous. I made food, including that awesome, delicious, caraway-laden Russian Black Bread. I LOVE caraway.
So life is still good. But I lost my camera. And I wish I knew what happened to it. Not knowing is worse than knowing. Why? I dunno. You tell me.
It's 2:31 am. I still stay up too late. I feel like depriving myself of sleep. I feel like painting all night. I get my best paintings when I'm either in a passionate mood, or am deprived. But not freezing to death. And it is freezing here in the basement.
Mum might give me a haircut. I'm stoked.
And I have many more thoughts, but I shan't grace you with their presence.
2 comments:
I was hoping that you would find your camera once you unpacked everything.
Forget the basement, it's cold everywhere in my house. I'm too cheap to turn the heat up anymore.
Did you get snow today? School was canceled and I'm pumped!! Maybe you can come visit me during the break? You would love my friend Sara, she is phenomenal at the piano.
Nah, this isn't from my camera, this is a pic from my webcam. I'm afraid the camera is long gone. We got BUTTLOADS of snow today. It's still snowing, in fact. And yes, school was cancelled. You guys are in the UP, right? That would be awesome. But I'd have to find a job first :D
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