Hor He Hor Hor (Lammis rule)

IT'S THE FIRST DAY OF SPRING!!!!

HOLY YES!!!!

I've decided that not sleeping has the same effects as drugs, to a milder degree (I've never used drugs...just going off of common knowledge). 

And also as with drug use, not sleeping is addictive: the less sleep you get, the less you want to sleep; or, the later you stay up, and the earlier you get up, the less sleep you want.

It's this way for me, at least. Back sometime in December or January I went to bed around 9:30-10pm, got up at 7 or 8am. I was tired at the right time, and my days were a notch better, and I actually didn't mind sleep. 

Now that I've been staying up late, I don't want to go to bed early. I still love the mornings, so I still get up early. And my view has gone back to "why waste time sleeping". I could get SO much more done if I didn't need sleep. I've said all this before. My point: not sleeping is bad. Hence section 89.

I was reading in 2 Nephi this morning, and chapter 11 made me SO stoked for the millennium. I HOPE I can be alive during that time. I hope I'm righteous enough. I hope I'm righteous enough to become exalted and create worlds. We're told that it's a "select few", but everything is relative. But in my mind, that means that the prophets, their wives, and their close family will get to be exalted, along with other great leaders and those who had lots of accomplishments during their life. Which is not me. (Side note: I'm not even sure how I got in to BYU-I: My grades aren't that good [at the time of my applying, I had a 2.8 GPA-SUCKY], I never did any extracurricular stuff- no clubs, no sports, no "NHS". I am, basically, a loser. The only thing I had going for me was my ACT, and even that wasn't that good. I'm counting my blessings for sure.) 

Anyways, the millennium. Just reading the chapter heading- Stem of Jesse (Christ) shall judge in righteousness—The knowledge of God shall cover the earth in the Millennium—The Lord shall raise an ensign and gather Israel- doesn't that sound AWESOME! Especially the part about "The knowledge of God shall cover the earth". During FHE, Mum said that it was the actual physical act of eating the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil that changed Adam and Eve to mortals. (She also said that it said that in "Jesus the Christ"- I seriously have to read that book). This was just so interesting- so interesting! After FHE I asked Mum if she knew anything else about that (she didn't) and then I said that I wanted to learn the science behind that (since God has to follow the natural laws) (Side note- you know how our knowledge is only partial? I wonder what the complete laws of physics are like- there has to be something in there about the priesthood, and resurrection, and being omniscient, and all that. I can't WAIT to learn about all that!!). I can't wait to have the complete truth, to learn about everything about the universe. And thinking like this makes me want to try harder, to be better. I so badly want to learn everything (the main reason why I'm so excited to get back to Burgland-I want to LEARN). 

We have this commentary thing for Isaiah; it's called "Isaiah Speaks to Modern Times". It has commentary on each verse. Isaiah 11:9 (2 Nephi 21:9) says: 

"They shall not hurt nor destroy in all my holy mountain: for the earth shall be full of the knowledge of the Lord, as the waters cover the sea."

The commentary for this verse says:

"It is amazing to contemplate, but Isaiah assures us that in those days there will be no crime, no war, no cheating, stealing, robbing, or ravishing. In fact, the Lord says people and animals 'shall not hurt or destroy in all my holy mountain'. 

"The modern prophet of the restoration, Joseph Smith, had the following comments on verses 6 to 9:

 'Men must become harmless before the brute creation, and when men lose their vicious dispositions and cease to destroy the animal race, the lion and the lamb can dwell together, and the sucking child can play with the serpent in safety'. (Smith, Teachings, p. 71.)

"On another occasion he said:

'Friendship is one of the grand fundamental principles of "Mormonism"; [it is designed] to revolutionize and civilize the world, and cause wars and contentions to cease and men to become friends and brothers. Even the wolf and the lamb shall dwell together; the leopard shall lie down with the kid, the calf, the young lion and the fatling; and a little child shall lead them; the bear and the cow shall lie down together, and the sucking child shall play on the hole of the asp, and the weaned child shall play on the cockatrice's den; and they shall not hurt or destroy in all my holy mountains; saith the Lord of hosts.' (Smith, Teachings, p. 316.)

"It is interesting that there will be no atheists or agnostics during the Millennium. Isaiah says that the whole earth will be filled with a knowledge of the Lord, even as the waters cover the sea. The unveiling of the spirit world so that all mankind can see the Lord at once is referred to in a modern revelation as follows: 'And there shall be silence in heaven for the space of half an hour; and immediately after shall the curtain of heaven be unfolded, as a scroll is unfolded after it is rolled up, and THE FACE OF THE LORD SHALL BE UNVEILED. ...EVERY KNEE SHALL BOW, AND EVERY TOUNGE SHALL CONFESS.' (D&C 88:95, 104)

"No wonder there will be neither atheists nor agnostics! Jeremiah said: 'And they shall teach no more every man his neighbour, and every man his brother, saying, Know the Lord: for they shall all know me, from the least of them unto the greatest of them' (Jeremiah 31:34).

"The Millennium will be almost like heaven on earth. As Isaiah had said earlier, 'they shall beat their swords into plowshares, and their spears into pruninghooks: nation shall not lift up sword against nation, neither shall they learn war any more' (Isaiah 2:4).

"The Lord will once again restore the pure language of Adam (Zephaniah 3:9). The history of the world will be revealed (D&C 88:108-10). The Lord will reveal how the world was created (D&C 101:33-34). The righteous will not die and be buried in graves, but will be changed in the twinkling of an eye (D&C 101:29-31). Science and astronomy will be taught by revelation (D&C 121:28-31). The whole human family will bow in humble recognition of the divinity and governing power of Jesus Christ (Isaiah 45:23; Romans 14:11; Philippians 2:10-11)."

Doesn't that sound AWESOME?!?!??!?! Peace, knowledge, righteousness. It WILL be heaven on earth. Oh my gosh. 

Piano lessons were rescheduled from yesterday to today. I wonder what music I'll get now? I was thinking about it, and decided that I like piano lessons because I get to show off and play for someone who cares, and because I get new music. No one at home even seems to care, let alone stops to listen, or act impressed. I am human, and I thrive off compliments, adoration, and attention, no matter what I say or seem like. Unfortunately, this doesn't happen, so I have to resort to my passive-aggressive attention-seeking habits (don't get me wrong, that's not the only reason why I dress/act/look like I do, just one of many). But that doesn't work as often as I think it would. So whatever. I know that Heavenly Father is proud of me when I do the right thing, and if I'm being honest with myself, I know it's the only thing that matters, and it's the best feeling in the world to know that Heavenly Father is proud of you.

I can tell that I've improved with piano; like, I can see myself getting better. It is so wicked cool. 

Earlier today I was wondering what people's first impressions of me are. I wonder if I stand out at all, or if I'm only different once you get to know me. I wonder if random people have ever thought I'm cute, or that I would make a good friend. I wonder if anyone has ever thought I was fake or annoying, without meeting me. I wonder what stands out about me the most. I wonder if people think of me as "individualistic", "unique", "different" (in a good way). I wonder if people have ever been too shy to talk to me (that would be hilarious, and ironic, considering how shy I am). I wonder what people think of me once they've gotten to know me. I wonder if I have any true friends. I wonder if people like me. I wonder if I'll ever like myself. I wonder if I'm really how people say I am, or if they're just saying that out of pity. I wonder who would miss me if I died. I wonder if people would even notice if I were gone.

I've also noticed that my english class actually did help me. I found myself planning out the rant on my last post as if I were writing a paper. They really know how to ingrain that stuff in your brain. My teacher taught us about fallacies; I'm seeing them everywhere now: in advertisements, in books, in the scriptures. It's so weird, and so cool. In hindsight, I really liked that class. That teacher was awesome. I wish I wasn't so shy; then I could talk in classes.

Oh BYU-I, only four Sundays. I WANT.

I refuse to sleep. I feel like a zombie. But I hate sleeping.