Reality

I will never be good enough at the piano. 

I don't have talent, I just practise a ton.

That makes me sad, because I love it so much.

I know that no matter how much I practise, I will never be good enough.

Nearly every mormon can play piano somewhat.

I'm not even sure I want to take a class anymore, because I fear I'd be told that I wasn't good enough. 

Of course, I'm grateful for what I can do. I never thought I'd be able to play hymns. But I fear that's as far as I'll go.

I just wish I were really really good at one thing. Even if it meant not being really good at other things. Because being a bit good at everything is not as good as being really good at one thing.

I would gladly give up all my artistic "talent" to be able to play piano well.

I would give up my ability to cook.

I would give up my photography.

I would give up...whatever else means a lot to me (within reason).

I am grateful for what I am able to do, though.

Is it April yet?