A New Hope

Hope hath been restored in my dreams of being a math tutor.

I'm thinking that all these good things that have been happening during this break are because I started reading scriptures every day during the break. My roommate was talking to me once about something, and I don't remember if I asked her a question, or if this was just part of her story, but she said something about that doing the little things, like reading the scriptures every day, make a huge difference. This didn't make sense to me, how something so small as reading the scriptures could make such a difference. It's just reading. But then another time after that I was talking to my mom, and complaining about something or other, and she said, "I thought of something. Have you been reading your scriptures every day?" I hadn't, and she told me to, and then she said that it makes a difference. There were also a lot of testimonies given this semester in my ward about how powerful reading the scriptures every day could be. I kept hearing this, and I knew that there must be a reason why everyone kept saying it, but I still didn't get it. I didn't understand how just by reading the scriptures, there will be big improvements in your life.

During the break, I've actually had ample time to read my scriptures, so I have been. And I've had a lot of good things happen: I got to work at Great Harvest for 3 days and earned $110, I had an awesome Christmas Eve and an awesome Christmas, I got to go to a friend's house on Sunday and just hang out, someone bought my contract that I've been really worried about not selling, and it's likely that I'll get to be a math tutor.

I still don't know how reading the scriptures every day makes that big of a difference. I can see how saying prayers helps you to remember Christ and Heavenly Father and your dependence on them, I can see how keeping the law of chastity and word of wisdom help, I can see how going to church helps. But just reading? I don't understand. But I love it. And I love all the people that Heavenly Father put in my path so that I would learn this, among numerous other things. I am so thankful for this church. I would be lost without it. It gives me purpose, it gives me hope, it gives me perspective, it gives me guidance. 

I am so grateful.