Wednesday, February 11, 2009

There's an airplane in the sky with a banner right behind loneliness is just a crime look each other in the eye and say hello oh oh oh

I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Tonight, I was in the gym, practising piano, when the YW Prez and A Laurel came up behind me. YW prez said she needed to borrow the piano, because she and A Laurel were practising a song that A Laurel would be singing. So I said okay. Then YW Prez said that she was so glad I was playing piano, and more people needed to play piano. Then A Laurel said that she too wanted to play piano, and YW Prez told her that she did free lessons. I wasn't sure that I heard right, so I said, "Wait, did you say free lessons?" "Absofruitly. More people need to play piano, and I just want to help" or something of that sort. My everything just stopped for a second, and then my brain zapped to life and I said, "Could I do that?" "Yeah, definitely!" Then she and A Laurel practised the song, and then I set up the date and time (Thursdays at 1 or 2 pm) and she told A Laurel that she'd have to arrange a different time for her because A Laurel's in school. I still can't believe it. This is probably the absolute best thing that could ever happen. Ever. This is like, my #1 dream coming true. Of course, it's only been my #1 dream since October-ish, but that doesn't mean anything. I can't believe it. I am SO HAPPY!!!  Seriously. I cannot believe that I am getting this opportunity. I cannot believe I'm getting PIANO LESSONS for FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ohmygosh!!!!!!!! I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!! I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Why can't there be words for this?! Can you feel it too? I send happiness at you all!!!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!!! Oh my gosh. I am so thankful that she offered to do this, and so so so so thankful to Heavenly Father for providing this opportunity. This is just even more proof that He loves us. Such a small thing, just to make me happy. I can't believe it. I'm still thinking that she's gonna call before 2pm tomorrow and say that she can't do it for some reason, because I have no idea what I did to deserve this. I don't know why I get this opportunity. But I am SO HAPPY and SO GRATEFUL!!!!! 



Other than that, it rained ALL DAY and it made me so happy. It was the perfect shade of "overcast gray" outside, and I think it was above 50 degrees. I made roasted potatoes, and something else, I think, but I can't remember. I got myself established on deviantart.com, and I've had people say they like my stuff. I love getting comments and critiques on my artwork and photos. I want to improve. 

We got TCBY, as it is "Waffle cone Wednesday". Fro-yo totally pwns. I've forgiven Aurora; it's not my business being mad/annoyed/disappointed at/with her, nor is it my business punishing her, nor is it my business holding a grudge. And it's not my business being a butt about her. 

It's still raining, and that makes me happy. We actually have a front yard. It's not just snow. Have you ever noticed the way the lights reflect on the wet street? It's really pretty, and a bit disorienting. I love it. 

I had a dream last night that I stayed in this place when I moved back to BYU-I. There were a whole bunch of Japanese people there, and it was really strict and formal, and everyone seemed like robots, and there were families with little kids there, not just single students. At one point, I looked in the mirror, and my hair was past my shoulders, and back to my natural boring colour. I didn't like it. And I was only supposed to stay there until school started, but I had signed a contract, forgetting that I had already signed a contract with the place I'm staying with Emmz, and I woke up sad, thinking that I'd have to call Emmz and tell her that I had to stay in this other place that, although way awesome, was not with Emmz. But then my brain woke up, and I realised it was just a dream. It was very odd. 

I don't know when a bad thing is going to happen, but with all this happiness, something bad has to happen soon. And when it comes, it's going to be huge, to be in proportion to all the good things that have been happening. I think that must be a law or something. "For every good thing that happens, there will be an equal amount of bad things that happen." I wish it would just come instead of building up so much. It's gonna be like a huge avalanche on top of me, as opposed to a few snowballs. 

Last night, I was in my Mum's room, looking at the moon. It was calling to me; the whole outdoors was calling to me. So I opened her window, and the call was stronger. I had to go outside. So I opened the screen and went on the roof. It was beautiful. So beautiful. I could feel the moonlight, could feel the stars and the sky and the night. I saw Orion's belt; it's the only one I can identify, and so the one I always look for. I can see it no matter where I go, and it makes me happy. I was laying out there when Smells came upstairs, and I told her to come out with me, and she did, and we lay there, looking at the sky. 

So that's that. I am so happy. I am so happy. I want it to be tomorrow. I am so happy. I AM SO HAPPY!!!!! 

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