Hey, I found this draft. I think I was out of it when I was writing it. Which is why it was saved as a draft, and not posted. I must have just closed my computer and zombied my way to bed.
I made my pinky bleed. And now I have short nails. But I can "play" the piano better!! I'm excited about that. The only other problem is that now, I have absolutely nothing to set me apart from the masses. I am, as the blog proclaims, "averagechlo". Nothing special or outstanding, unless it stands out how plain I am.
I have a paper due Monday, a paper due Tuesday, two tests on Tuesday, and a test on Wednesday. It's stinkwad supreme. But I'll survive.
My computer was being all stupid, but it's okay-ish now. It started tonight: whenever I'd turn it on, it would give me a black screen that said "blah blah blah blah reseat your memory". I didn't know what to do, so I called Mom (at 11pm my time, 1am their time :D ). Thank goodness she was still up painting. So she woke up Dad, and he took a couple minutes to be coherent, and then he tried to help me but couldn't (His expertise is in macs. He worked for Apple for some years), and then looked for a number for customer support at Dell. I called them, and they were actually really helpful, but in the end I needed to unscrew the back of my laptop to "reseat the memory" (take it out and put it back in). I don't have any tools at all, so I was kinda bummed, but then I thought one of my FHE bros might have mini-screwdrivers (he did) and he was awesome enough to drive down to my dorm to drop them off with 10 minutes left until curfew was over. I found one that worked, unscrewed my laptop, readjusted, figured out how to put it back in, and screwed my laptop back together. I turned it on. It didn't work. So I repeated that a couple more times, then I prayed, then did it again, and it still didn't work. But I found something online that said something like, "I had bad memory and I removed it and my comp worked". So I removed the memory, and my comp worked!! I prayed again (always give thanks right after, or you'll forget!!). Now I know that the memory is being stupid. But why is it being stupid? Why all of a sudden? Either I have a virus, I damaged something (doubt it), or one of my roomies stepped on my comp or something. But they wouldn't tell me if I did. And while we're on the subject of not telling, MY ROOMIES KEEP STEALING MY FOOD!!! I was almost 3,000% positive that the diet sodas that I JUST bought were being stolen, and I have proof!! Whenever I drink a soda, I pull off the tab that you use to pop it open (I'm collecting them :P ), and I found one in the trash that DIDN'T have the tab off. Isn't it enough that I bake for them all the time? That I spent all my grocery money on baking stuff? But now they're not eating the stuff I baked for them, and I (being the stupid paranoid idiot jerk that I am) feel like they're doing it on purpose, like they know that there's lots of calories in it, so they won't eat it. I know. Illogical, irrational, unlikely. But that's what I think. I also think one of my roomies won't eat in front of me, but that may just be me projecting: I'm afraid to eat in front of this roomie, because she STARES at me and tries to see what I'm eating (I KNOW that this isn't paranoia.) And then I feel like when I do eat in front of her, she gets this air of triumph, and has a noticeable improvement in mood, like she was just waiting for me to eat so that she could be like, "ha ha, you ate, and I didn't." And the stupidest thing is that she eats all these way high-cal, fatty, unhealthy foods, because I see the wrappers and boxes in the trash, but just not around me, I guess. And she's "overweight" or whatev. Fat. But there are so many subtle things that she does that just makes me wonder. And it may be all in my head, and I may be reading too much into it. But it's really bothering me.
I'm tired all of a sudden. It's only 2:35.
I bought a 10-lb bag of flour on Friday, plus a buttload of other bakingstuffs. I am SO stoked. I LOVE LOVE LOVE baking!! I'm making baklava for FHE tomorrow. But I need to go buy nuts and brown sugar. And I need more yeast.
Holy cow, I'm falling asleep sitting here. I need to STOP going to bed so late. And procrastinating. And eating right before I go to bed.
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