Saturday, February 28, 2009

No, I'd rather it be mustard, if you please.

Cor, I'm bored today. It's one of those lazy do-nothing days. I don't even feel like playing piano. 
Leeeeethhhhhhhhhharrrrrrrrgyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.........................

It needs to be April. And I get to sign up for classes in 17 days. Heck yeah!
La la la la la la laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I........aaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmm................BOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRREEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

I feel like cooking, actually, but then I'll eat whatever I cook (and that's not good when I eat fifty trillion pounds of cookie dough)
Perhaps I'll just go eat lunch lunch lunch and then be bored bored booorreeedddddddddddddddddddddd

Eh.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Piano and Dancing in the Rain

I want it to rain forever forever forever forever forever forever forever forever
It's so beautiful...forever forever forever forever
I want it to rain forever

Playing piano in the church; I come out, and it's pouring rain; so much so that the light from the lampposts becomes solid because it's passing through so many drops. I am so happy; I dance and my coat becomes soaked, and I get water in my shoes. But I am so happy; smiling; laughing; closing my eyes and facing the sky. Twirling around.
I get in the car and take of my coat and make "oh!" noises at how beautiful it is. I can't get over it. I drive to the end of the parking lot with the lights off and the windshield wipers off. There is no one on the road; so silent, and so loud. The lights are smeared across the street (isn't it amazing how light bends? Isn't it amazing?). The rain drums on the top of the car. I go under the speed limit so it takes longer to get home. It's so beautiful. The snow is melting (I'm tired of snow). I sense spring (I need spring). It's raining so hard. It's so beautiful. I get to the road where I am supposed to turn to go home; but I go straight. I don't want to go home. It's darker down this road, and foggy, and beautiful. More hazy lights. I drive, drive, drive, then it's too dark and too foggy and I turn around in someone's driveway. I speed back, just because I can. I turn on the road. There's a huge puddle. I go down to the end, turn left at the batman sign. Turn my lights off. There's another puddle. There's another huge puddle. I turn right, onto the last street, and speed through the puddle. It's like a water ride. Go down a bit, and the biggest puddle I've ever seen. I speed through that. So much water, forced to the sides by the car. So beautiful, and so fun. I'm laughing. I get to our house, and turn around in the driveway. Go through another huge puddle on the opposite side of the street as I drive away from the house. I've probably soaked their cars. Oops. Then I turn around and again go through the biggest puddle I've ever seen. So much water. Hydroplaning action going on (heck yeah). Then I go up the driveway and go inside. I get out and go to the edge of the garage. Close my eyes, and listen. Listen. It's so beautiful. I want it forever.

Piano lessons were sweetness. The teacher always makes me feel like I'm an awesome piano player (but I assure you, I'm not. I'm ashamed by my bragging; what I've done is NOTHING. I realised that I don't have talent; I have practise. It's only because I practised that I was able to do piano); she's always amazed at what I can do. I have nothing to compare myself with, so I assume she's just amazed because I got this far on my own ('cept it's not that far. Just past the basics). 
The nocturne is a lot harder than I thought it'd be; it's only three pages, but it's even harder than that fantasia that I'm working on. And Teacher gave me like, fifty billion things of music that I can't play, but I can tell are easy (once again, I have no talent; I was able to do the things that she gave me because they were so amazingly easy). So practise practise practise is going to be my life until I get those songs. I need to get my hands stronger. 
I love piano. I love it. Love love love. I can feel it sometimes now, and hear it. 
I suppose I shouldn't complain; I never even thought I'd be able to play hymns. But I can. I never thought I'd be able to read music. But I can. I'm still amazed. It's me. I'm playing. I'm playing piano. And I'm fully convinced that it's not because of me or any talent that I have, but because I practised, and because I pray all the time that I'll become better. I said that I would love to be able to play hymns, and would play the piano for church whenever it was needed, if I could become good. And then I practised my butt off and prayed. And I'm convinced that that is what is making me become better. I am positive that I wouldn't be able to play without help.

I can tell that I've improved, though. It's so cool. It's SO cool. I love piano.
Music theory is more complicated than I thought. I want to take a class in it. Although with my major, I doubt I'll be able to. I also want to take art and photography and other science and a baking class (so I can learn the chemistry behind baking :D), and I won't have enough credits for everything I want to take.

Schink had this cub scout thing and we were supposed to bring a dessert so I made these amazing delicious make-you-fat-because-you-can't-stop-eating-them delicious peanut-butter thingies (I made 'em before; I've blogged about them-they were the ones that I substituted cookies for graham cracker crumbs). This time I didn't have enough graham cracker crumbs, so I used honey-nut cheerios. And there wasn't enough powdered sugar, so I blended granulated sugar into powdered sugar. And there wasn't enough peanut butter, so I used corn syrup for the rest of the peanut butter. 
I also made a cake that called for a boxed cake mix, but we didn't have a boxed cake mix, so I made a boxed cake mix and used that. And then I made a frosting to go with it, but it called for chocolate chips and I had used all of those in the peanut-butter things, so I looked up what could be a sub for chocochips and it said mix some stuff so I did. It came out grainy (the frosting) so I heated it up in the microwave until the sugar melted. 
And those were my cooking exploits of the day.

Piano=life
Piano=love
Piano=obsession
Piano=delicious
Piano=a skill at which I'll never be good enough

End

i won't let go i won't let go even if you say so oh no i've tried and tried with no results i won't let go i won't let go

Piano lesson today @ 2:30. I get that nocturne. I was listening to it; it doesn't seem incredibly hard. But I suppose I'll have to wait to see the music. 

It rained yesterday :D
But not that much :(

I can sense spring approaching

I love this song. Have you checked it out yet?

Newsflash: My baby brother is covered in lipstick (so yelled my mum from upstairs) because I was supposed to be watching him but my version of watching him is following him around for a few minutes then getting distracted by something. I'll probably be a horrible mother.

I miss BYU-I

My nails are blue
Beautiful
Electric
Blue

My right contact (anatomical position) is bothering me
I suppose I'll go change it

Mascara
Eyeshadow
Eyelash floating in the water in the sink
Dirty mirror

My contact is really bothering me, and I need to leave, so as much as I'd like to keep boring you with my unlife, I must go. So sorry to disappoint. 

But before I leave, I made these awesome deliciousnesses:

I used nonseedless raspberry preserves and cherry preserves (not mixed, just in different places to try which one I liked better). Cherry was better. It tasted like pie. 

Did you know that 1 Tablespoon of preserves has 50 calories? That is A LOT. 
1 Teaspoon of sugar has 15 calories
1 Tablespoon butter has 110 calories

End

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Antes de I Begin the Day

I woke up from another vivid dream at 9 and just typed it down. It went from 5am to 9am, when my alarm was going off and I had to press it. It was a good dream; then again, all of mine are good and way cool. They could totally be movies. 

TODAY'S WEDNESDAY!!! I just realised that!! Piano tonight.

Piano lesson was moved to Thursday because Teacher had sore throat and a hoarse voice. 

Home teacher came over (the other one didn't because he didn't call him) and he's this nice guy from our ward who actually seems to care for our family. I didn't realise how much my parents (and I suppose I myself) had missed having company. It's always like that. You don't realise how much you needed something until you get it again and then it's like, "whoa, I was depraved". I was surprised that even I enjoyed it. Wanna hear something odd? I miss the ward in K-Ville, even though all the young moms were gossipy and a lot were immature, they were less busy and did things like parties and such a lot more than these old fogies do, and since dad was in school with most of the husbands, we got invited to parties for New Years, Christmas, etc. But whatever. That's my fault for not appreciating it. And I definitely DEFINITELY miss the wards at BYU-I. I remember one Sunday (it may have been the first Sunday, which was a fast Sunday), the bishop told us that the way the wards were run at BYU-I (or he may have just said "college") was the most perfect, because we got our home teaching/visiting teaching done, because nearly everyone was there on time, because they had a very very high attendance rate. And it's true. I want that ol' Spirit of Ricks back. But only two and a half more months, and I'm back. WAANNTTTT!!
I need patience.

Time to go be alive. Pardon.

Monday, February 23, 2009

I a m t i r e d S l e e p i s n e a r I c a n f e e l i t i n m y b o d y D r e a m a d r e a m o f b e a u t y.

Saturday: 
I don't remember how the day went, but I made two pies (the lemon meringue one again and this french silk pie that mum gave me a recipe for that wasn't good at all-but the crust was: I used the graham cracker crust recipe, but used chocolate graham crackers, no cinnamon, and added cocoa powder). Later that night, when I was apposed to be sleeping, I painted.
Sunday:
Piano, church (in primary, I had low blood sugar no-energyness because I had sugar-cereal for breakfast. I didn't like it), lunch (an apple and soup straight from the can), piano, home at 4pm, cook cranberry meatballs, elders came over for dinner (they both do piano, the older one can play by ear, and had lessons for one year, the younger one, who's cooler, had lessons for six years), Thaden had a mega-diaper, full of raisins and coming out the top of his diaper. He had stuck his hand in it, too, and wiped it on places. Aurora and I laughed a lot. Mum watched O Brother, Where Art Thou with me (good movie, go watch it, then go read The Odyssey, which I  will now)
When I was playing the piano after church, someone told me they had a piano that wasn't too out of tune that I could have-for free-if I could come pick it up. I'm not even going to hope. Either it's going to be way out of tune (we can't afford to have it tuned, but I did say that they could keep it 'til I have my own house, then I could take it and get it tuned, because it'd be cheaper than buying one), or we won't be able to pick it up, or we won't have room for it, or we won't be able to get it in the house, or Dad'll say no. It never happened until the piano is here, and in the house, and I am playing it. But that won't happen until it happens, which it won't, so I'm not even going to hope. 

Today:
Woke up, breakfast, downstairs to paint, spray paint in a not-well-ventilated area, choke, cough, to my room, sleep, upstairs, lunch, whatever, store, pick up Aurora- Story Time: Because I CAN NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOOOOTTTTT stand rap AT ALL, and can just BARELY tolerate R&B and all that other crap music that Aurora listens to on the radio, and because she's spoiled and doesn't want me to have my way if she can't have her way (hmm, miserable like unto herself?), we had to make a rule when I came home that whoever's the passenger gets to choose the music. So when she drives, I choose the music; when I drive, she chooses the music. We also have an unofficial courtesy rule that she doesn't do rap, only R&B and other junk, and I don't do hymns or classical, only Enya and other stuff. But tonight she decided  to be a jerk and disregard her own rule. She came up to the car, Mum moved so Aorta could drive, I was thinking in my mind, "Great. Here we go again." So she turned on the radio to her music, with the unlogic that she hadn't gotten to listen to her music the last time she drove up, so she got to listen to it now (yes, let's make exceptions for you but not for me. Of course YOU can change the rule to suit you, but when I try to do it, it doesn't work). It was some hideous, nasty, revolting, vomit-in-my-throat rap song, so I tried to change it, and mum defended Aorta, because apparently she NEVER gets her way and I ALWAYS get my way (bull), so I told her to let me out. She did, and I got out and walked home. I'd rather freeze than listen to that disgusting, sorry excuse for music. And I did. By the time mum decided that I shouldn't be walking outside at night by myself in the cold, I couldn't feel my legs at all. It was weird. I was kinda mad for the first few minutes of walking, but then I decided that I really didn't care; that it was my choice to get out of the car; that it was pretty outside; and that I was getting to take a walk outside in the dark. So it was actually a good thing. When I got in the car, Aurora and mum were mad or something, like I knew they'd be, but I was all chill. I didn't know what Aorta's problem was; she got to listen to her crybaby barf. And I wasn't dead, so I didn't know why mum was upset (you say I'm naive; I disagree. I am always right, until I am attacked and stolen and killed. And since I'm neither of the three, I'm not naive and I was entirely safe the whole time. Besides, I'm a teenager. It's not gonna happen to me and I know everything. Can't beat that logic). But anyways, we got home, unloaded the groceries. I put them away, which I love to do. Had cereal. Piano. Tired. Came upstairs, we did family prayer and scripture (Dad's on call, so he wasn't there). Came downstairs, did scriptures, then decided I'd better type in my journal or I'd forget stuff. I'm dead. I could probably fall asleep sitting up. I'm going to get up early tomorrow to make breakfast for Smells and Schink. Maybe scones. We have sour cream now, so I can. But I don't know. While we're talking about cooking, today I made potato buds and added a packet of Rice-a-Roni seasoning, then split-pea soup (1 lb split peas. Cook them, drain. Add chicken broth. Puree until smooth-ish. Add more chicken broth to thin. Add salt to taste. Pure awesomeness with almost no fat), then made this casserole thing from a recipe on a bag of instant buttermilk corn bread stuff that dad got one time on accident and that I've only used once. It called for ground beef, canned tomatoes, corn, onion. We had almost one tomato, so I processed that, and some green olives that no one ever eats, and one time I saw that they had been used in a mexican-type recipe. Then I added nearly a pound of ground beef that I made to go in spaghetti sauce but mum didn't want me to put it in there because she said she didn't like it, so people could put it in if they wanted to, but Schink didn't put it on the table when we had spaghetti, so no one ate it, and we have no sauce left and almost no spaghetti anyways, so it would have gone to waste. Then I cooked some corn, put that in a pan, then put the ground beef mix in there, then put the bread mix on top that the recipe said to make. It was a bit salty, but tasted like tamales. It was good with ketchup. 

It's late, and I'm tired. Audios. 

P.S. Piano lesson tomorrow at 2pm :D then library. And our home teachers are coming over for the first time (we've been here a year...this ward is disorganised, slow, laid-back. I hate it so much) at 7pm. And we're having FHE because Dad wasn't here tonight (and because I forgot to do a lesson...hehe...my mind is so scattered)

End

Friday, February 20, 2009

I. WANT. TO. PLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! (piano)

Schink showed me how to do the small-mouth thing and I practised a bit and now I can do it. I also practised those five chords again and I definitely have line blisters on the tips of three of my fingers. I think I'll keep killing them two times a day until I have calluses. I really want to take the guitar with me and learn it so that I have my own instrument with me. And I've decided for sure that I really like the trombone. I want to practise it nearly as much as I want to play piano. I would be practising right now, but Dad's asleep (poo). I really really wanna go practise it, and I really really really REALLY want it to be Sunday so I can go practise piano. I'm gonna bring some food with me so that I can stay longer. Oh, I WISH we had a piano in a soundproof room then I could play it whenever for however long I felt like. You have NO IDEA how BADLY I want to play right now!!!!!!!!!!! ARROIHEORHWONEKLJGN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO PLAY PIANO!!!!!!!!!! 

Oh, and I was playing around with the trombone and found "We Thank Thee O God For A Prophet". Well, not all of it, because I can't get that high, but the first couple of lines I can do. It's pretty coolness. I want to stay with trombone and keep doing it, but Mum said they're like, $800. Ridiculous. And the Snow building just has pianos, not other instruments. I wonder if they rent. I wonder if you have to be a music major to rent. 

It's odd what things trigger memories. Today Thaden broke a lamp and it reminded me of something, and it's so weird, because I remember it exactly. I wish I could make a video of it in my head, because it's so crisp; it's like a scene from a movie, but as descriptive as a passage in a book.

I have an idea for painting. I hope it'll be cool. It was inspired by another thing on deviantART. 

I really want to practise trombone. I really want to play piano. I kind of want to practise guitar. 

Cor! I'm gonna miss trombone when I go back. I wonder if I'll ever be able to get one. I wonder if I'll ever get a piano. I wonder if I'll ever have the opportunity to try other instruments. 

I really really want to go play piano. REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously.

Painting time; going to try (unsuccessfully) to get my mind off piano.




Oh, but P.S., there's this really really awesome, beautiful, weird, sad, happy, vivid-imagery song that you guys should look up on playlist.com and listen to: This Is The Dream of Evan and Chan by The Postal Service. The first time you listen to it, it just sounds odd, but the next few times you listen to it, you get the words and the music and the different moods: love, longing, a bit of sadness mixed in. I don't know why I love it so much. But it's so beautiful, and so haunting. Whenever it starts, I'm kind of scared to listen to it, but I also yearn for it, and must listen to it. Maybe because I know that it ends. I don't want it to end. It's so beautiful. You'll probably hate the song, but I think it's beautiful. But I love that song. 

Okay, that was a long P.S. 
But now it's time to paint

What Else Is Hidden Inside of Me?

Yesterday Schink had this thing at his school for all the trombone players in the 5th grade band called "Trombone-a-palooza" or some cheese like that, and he was in it, so Mum and I and Thaden went and watched it. We were a bit late, so they were playing a song when we walked in, and it was kind of hilarious to hear all those little kids farting out of their trombones; not being in synch or anything. But it was also cool at the same time, because you know that they had been working hard and all that. Anyways, we watched that, and their band teacher seemed way cool, then I decided that it looked easy and fun and that I wanted to try to play trombone. So I asked Schink if I could take it home; he said yes. So I took it home and fiddled around a bit, then got online to find out how to play a trombone, and I learned the positions and the way you're supposed to do your mouth and stuff. I was playing around with that, and then Schink came home and showed me some more stuff that clarified everything, then I made myself a chart, and I ended up practising for about 2 hours. Then today I practised some more. I can only do the lower two sets of notes, and I can't do the third, because I can't get my mouth small enough or the right shape or something. Schink showed me how to do it, but I forget, so I'll have to ask him again. But I can play "Hot Cross Buns" and a few other things! I think I really like trombone. It's fun. 

I also have a guitar that I got in about 9th grade that I haven't really touched, but yesterday after playing the trombone, I decided I'd get it out and mess with that. So I did, and I can tell it's going to take me a lot longer to learn guitar than piano or trombone. But there's this website that I think is really good, so I'm using that, and the first thing is to learn the C, A, G, E, and D major chords. I practised those today and now I have three red, puffy fingers on my left hand. I can tell they'll blister when I practise more. 

It's so sweetness, though. I want to try other instruments. I think I wasn't supposed to discover this talent/interest until now, because if I had done it in school, I wouldn't have stayed with it, because I would have gotten impatient and lazy. But since I'm wanting to do this, and am choosing to do this, I'm motivated to learn, and I have the patience. I'm so stoked. I'm hoping to be good enough with the guitar by time I leave to be able to take it with me. But I don't want to take it with me if I'm not good at it. 

Schink's trombone is a rental, and I wish it weren't. But Aorta does have a flute, and she's not in band anymore...

I made a super-delicious lemon meringue pie yesterday with a homemade graham cracker crust. It was so good, I had some for breakfast today. 

The pie: http://www.allrecipes.com/Recipe/Grandmas-Lemon-Meringue-Pie/Detail.aspx

Changes on the pie: I just used lemon juice instead of the 2 lemons and lemon zest. 3 Tbsps juice= 1 lemon. It wasn't lemony enough for me, so I added a lot more than the 6 Tbsp. I don't know how much more though; you'll have to taste as you go. 

The crust: http://www.allrecipes.com/Recipe/Graham-Cracker-Crust-I/Detail.aspx

Changes on the crust: I only had 1 cup of graham cracker crumbs, so I used some Cinnamon Toast Crunch cereal to make up the difference. 

I still need to make something for today, and I think I'll do that after blogging, 'cuz Thaden's sleeping and I can't practise music. 

I want it to be Sunday so I can play real piano (and go to church, of course. I love church. And I actually really like working in primary)

Oh, and I made a painting last night. It looks really cool. I saw this style on deviantART that I really liked, so I kind of copied it, but it still had my flavour. A title even came to mind as I was making it. And then the paint looked really cool when I poured it down the drain.

I'm not bored anymore-no, definitely not bored-but I  do want to be back and learning. And Snow building. And friends. And all that other stuff. 

LOOOVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEE BYU-I!!!

*Stoked*