I wish I could escape memories. They're tied in to everything: objects, places, temperatures, colours, smells, words. Memories evoke emotions, thoughts, that I don't want.
Where's the reset button? This game's not going how I want it to go. Where's rewind? Can't I start this over from a certain point?
I can't just leave a place when I don't want to remember anymore. That doesn't solve the problem. I want to erase the memories. I want to start life again, lessons kept but experience forgotten. It's not just the bad, but also the good that haunt me. I want to start life again, nothing holding me back. I don't want to have every object, place, temperature, colour, smell, word, be associated with some memory. Memories evoke emotions, thoughts, that I don't want. I wish I could escape memories.
3 comments:
Then forget about the past....dream and head towards tomorrow... live today.
I know, it's calling the kettle black, but I thought you could use those words. :)
Love ya my dear Chloe!
<3 always,
Emz
aka, your FAVORITE roommate! ;)
it's not the easiest truth to swallow, but it's the bitter tastes in life that make the sweet things mean as much as they do. emotions aren't in and of themselves. love, happiness, joy, patience, excitment, pleasure, relaxation, fun, calm, appreciation, understanding, confidence... find in EVERY bitter thing in life a way to let it help you appriciate the goodness of life. And that way the bitter won't feel so overwhelming.
the word I have to type is: viscrasi
Yeah..sometimes it would be nice to "escape memories" but they are stuck to us and we can't do anything about it :(
Its fun to read your blog..thanks for sharing
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